The Christmas season

This year I am finding that the Christmas season is changing drastically. Usually Christmas is filled with craziness and running from one house to another. This year things seem to be dying down.

This Friday we will be leaving for Florida. We will be spending about 5 days with my parents to do our own christmas. When we get there we will be setting up their tree and putting all the gifts under the tree. Then the day we leave we will wake up like it is Christmas morning and do stockings and gifts. We will then head home that night.

We are still kind of unsure of what our actual Christmas will be like we know of a couple of houses for sure but that is it. I may not even see a majority of my family for Christmas.

So only 4 more work days then I babysit on thursday. Then Early Friday morning we leave. We cant wait this may not be a crazy Christmas like past years but it will be the most memorable. Happy Holidays Everyone. Enjoy your time with your families.

What does the Future hold

Well its about time I update. I have decided that I need to make a career change but in order to do that I need to go back to school. I have decided to get my CDA (child developement associate). I want to have my own in-home day care. I am so excited. I have started the course and have done that howework that I can do without the textbook since I dont have one yet.

I have also accepted a job watching an 11 month old girl 6 hours/wk. I start next thursday. Cant wait for that either.

Other than that there hasnt been much going on. But will keep people updated.

A week of Struggles

REALLY struggled this week with my weight loss. Yes I lost 1 lb! but I was disappointed to tears when I saw that number. I was angry, pissed, disappointed, sad, and a tid bit of happy just that it wasnt a gain. But things are about to change....... A great friend has decided to help me figure this out. She is my "Personal Trainer". Never again will I continue to lose 1 lb a week. She is my angel who is going to help me get the life that I have wanted for so long. I WILL DO IT!!!!!!!!

Frustration

Today was my weigh in and I had nothing but disappointment. I busted butt this week to only lose 1.8 lbs. What also made it frustrating is mother nature had to come and ruin it for me. Next should be better. We joined a gym this last friday and we have gone everyday thus far. This journey is for me and my future of being a mother. Nothing and no one can stand in my way! "Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent." - Marilyn Vos Savant I see this quote everyday and it keeps me from giving up. When I am in pain I see this quote and it keeps me going. Another quote that keeps me going is. "Failure is not fatal; failing to change will be." -John Wooden I need to change. I want to be a mom and I need to change and continue to change. I am determined to not let anything stand in my way of anything that I want especially when it comes to being a mom. I WANT IT SO BAD! I am just a wreck today. Frustrated, sad, happy, angry, excited, determined, pretty much every emotion. AF just had to do this to me. Dont know if this makes any sense to anyone but there it is. Keep pushing!!!!

Weigh In Day!

Weighed in this morning. Lost another 2.8 lbs for a total of 12.6 lbs in 4 weeks. plus I lost another 3" overall for a total of 12.5" overall. Go me I an down to 251.4 which I have been at that weight since I was probably a freshman in High school. WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!

A "healthy" Cake????

my amazing healthy cake that I made for dessert tonight. I will never make a regular cake again. Who knew soda could make an incredibly moist cake that tastes amazing. And it only 2pts on weight watchers. AWESOME!!!!!!

Weigh In Day!

Well this morning was time to weigh in..... moment of truth. It had been a rough week ate some really yummy food 2 of my 3 days off. Plus I had no motivation to workout. But I still lost weight at least. Down another 2.2 lbs for a total of 9.8 lbs. Hopefully this week will be better. Just need to find my motivation.

Where did my motivation go?????

So this weekend I have been alittle less than motivated. Before this morning i had only worked out one day since last wednesday. Motivation is just not there. This morning I really had to push myself to get my shoes on and get on the treadmill. But I did it! Been really tired these last few days. Been taking lots of naps. Well time to get ready for another work week and hopefully I will find so motivation this week.

My Journey Cont.

So I have been on weight watchers for 2 full weeks now and I am loving it. Yesterday (Monday) I went out and bought a treadmill to help since I think that excersise dvd tend to be kinda cheesy so I dont do them but I needed something even though I have still managed to lose weight in 2 weeks only excersing 2 days. So my weigh in was yesterday as well and I lost another 3.6 lbs for a total of 7.6 lbs in 2 wks. Love it!!!


This person will forever be gone. I have realized that i dont feel like I look the way I do in this picture. I dont feel "BIG". IT'S TIME TO LOOK THE WAY I FEEL!!!! FIND A NEW ME!!! Follow me on this journey to help keep my motivated. its going to be a long road but one I am willing to take.

My Journey

Well so far so good on weight watchers. I weighed in today after only being on WW for 4 days.......and I am down....... 4 lbs!!!! and down 5.25 inches overall. I'm excited and quite proud of myself. Need to be happy even over the smallest accomplishments. My husband need to learn that he constantly wants 10 lbs a week and this week he didnt get 10 so he wasnt too happy. We weekly watch the biggest loser on tv and it amazes me how unhappy they can be if they dont pull big numbers. Be proud of every accomplishment wether big or small. I must say I really like the WW program you can still eat the things you want as long as you stay in your points which mine dropped by a point today. But that is ok! Got a long journey ahead but it is one I am willing to go on. to be continued.......

NEW BUSINESS

Well I have started my own business making blankets. These are some of the ones that I have done....... If any one whats a custom made blanket just let me know or email me at handmadewarmth@aol.com.

Looking up

Well my husband totally made my day today. We filed our taxes yesterday and found out that we had to pay in this year. So today he came up to me and said " we need to get moving on having kids and you (meaning me) need to start your own business." For the last few years I have wanted to have my own daycare and now I might actually be able to. And of course I have wanted my own children for awhile as well and that is starting to come true. We have been trying but nothing yet. Then of course getting our own house next year so I can have that daycare that I have always wanted. I cant wait!

One year came and went

Well one year has come and gone in the world of marriage. September 25, 2009 my best friend and I were married. I am looking back and wondering where that time went. Now we are working to get a house of our own and working on a family of our own.

Bryan is starting to do more as far as work is concerned. He is leaving to travel for work to Toronto, ON to help with some training up there since he is our trainer here. He will be gone for a week and not quite sure how I feel about that. We haven't been apart at all really for the past almost 4 years I think. And the last time was only for a couple of days a week is different. But we make it work and I am very proud of him for all the work he is doing. This is a great opportunity for him and it will open some doors for more travel so I guess I need to get used to it.

So to back track a bit.... it has been a busy year and its hard to remember what has happened.

My Birthday we had an interesting time in New Hampshire to say the least. Bryan took me for a weekend of shopping and just hanging out. The one memorable thing about that weekend was when we .......(well I) almost put a hole in the ceiling of the hotel room. I had decided that I want mimosas to drink. So we went across the street to get the champagne and orange juice. When we got back to the room I went to open the bottle of champagne and next thing I know I am about ready to pee my pants either from fear of laughter. The cork had shot out of that bottle and hit the ceiling. Of course Bryan and I could not stop laughing for quite some time. But other than that snafu we had a great weekend. Happy Birthday to me!!!

For our Anniversary this year we went to Maine and got to spend time with my Nana and she gave us a gorgeous quilt that she made. We walked on the beach and just enjoyed being together and celebrating a fun and exciting year.

Thanksgiving we spent with the Bryan's parents and brother, and this year we spent it with their uncle Louie and his girlfriend Stephie and her son Austin. Then I spent it with my uncle before he left for rehab to deal with his alcoholism and deal with his attempted suicide that occurred the previous month.

Christmas this year was our craziest yet and we don't have any children yet. Christmas eve we went to Bryan's parents and did gifts with them. Then went to his aunt's house to spend time with his WHOLE family. Went home and did our Christmas together. Got food prepped before going to bed at 2am. Got up early started cooking food. While stuff was cooking we called my parents to open our gift over the phone. Then by 11am my aunt, cousins, and grandfather showed up to do Christmas at our house. Right after they all left we went back to Bryan's parents for another Christmas dinner. Left there and went to Annie's and had yet another Christmas with them. We ended our day by going to Nectar's in Burlington to watch Annie's cousin play. Talk about a long and crazy Christmas. Here we are in the middle of Jan. and I still need to get together with my brother ans sister. One of these days things might slow enough to get to doing it.

Other than these wonderful memories this year we have spent most of our time working and making a living that can support us and our future family.

Life always gets busy but you need to make time to stop and smell the roses. But always and forever you will have you family to be there to support you through everything.