words hurt more than people think

So today at work there was a conversation about blogs and I had said that I needed to update mine. Well the response I got not only caught me off guard but it truely hurt my feelings. The comment was " not that you have anything important to talk about. Who would want to read about how you 'took a poop' this morning? " why would someone feel that they can say that I have nothing important to talk about. Everyone has things that are important to them even if other people don't care. People still deserve respect. Ya know there have been things that I have read on other peoples blog or on my family website that aren't important to me but obviously if that person wrote it it was important to them or it interested them, and I respect that. So that comment that was made to me I feel was disrespectful, inconsiderate, demeaning, and down right rude. Just because you feel that you are better than everyone doesn't mean that you are. We are all equals and we all have feelings that need to be considered before we speak, hopefully before we lose friends and hurt their feelings. I feel that no matter who reads this if anyone, blogs are a place to write our feeling, our experiences, our joys, and our heart aches. And that is the way my blog is going to be and if people don't like or think that what I say isn't important..... WELL KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!! If don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all!!!

to clean or not to clean.... that is the question

So you ever think that it woould be a wonderful idea to start cleaning but then soon realize it wasn't? Well I am in the exact boat right now.

I thought it would be good to get rid of some stuff but have now realized that most of it I can't bring myself to let go of. So instead I though that I could get some totes and just organize and move our bed around. Yea well I was wrong again!!! I have only gotten part way through and have now realized what a mess I have created and decided that I need to stop since I was feeling alittle overwhelmed. Maybe Bryan will help me when he gets home. We need a bigger place or I just have to learn to let go of a lot of things. There is just too much stuff. If any one has any suggestions on how to get out of this boat let me know. I could definitly use the help.

sleep or the lack of

this is a picture that was taken when I made a suprise trip to Florida to visit my parents.

So I cant seem to figure out why it is that a brain cant shut off so one can sleep. It seems like I have been having this problem more and more lately. So instead of sleepy which I could really use, I start a blog. Why I have done this I dont know but maybe it will be fun. Well for my fist blog I will talk a little about myself. Well I am 22 years old and enjoying my life. Even though things have gotten hectic, but then again you will have that when you are planning a wedding.

Which as of right now there is almost 300 people invited. HOLY CRAP!!! Who knew bryan and my families were so big. I'll tell ya, you never know what goes into planning a wedding until you actually plan one. And of course like every other normal person I still have to work a 40 hour/week job. I dont see how women on those wedding shows like "bridezilla" or "platnium weddings" can just up and quit their jobs for a year so that they can plan a wedding. There are times that I wish I could do that but I cant I am not rich. And ya know I am quite ok with not being rich. So I guess back to the lack of sleep thing maybe thinking about wedding plans might make it hard to shut off my brain so that I can sleep, but its not like I have much time to think about it and plan. Ohwell it will work out and it will be an amazing wedding.

More about me....... I have a brother (Jeff), sister (Maggie), and sister in-law (Toni). My parents (Skip and Linda) they just celebrated their 25th wedding anniversary, which just amazes me at how anyone can be married that long. What an accomplishment!!!! I hope that Bryan and I will last that long. I'm sure we will it just takes compromise, hard work, love and compassion. I love vermont I dont think I could ever move away from here. Bryan's family all lives in just about the same town. So even if I wanted to move I dont thin kI could pull Bryan away from his family. I wish that my family was a close as his family. Man I got family everywhere..... California, Texas, Utah, Florida, North Carolina (i think), Maryland, Maine, New hampshire, and Vermont... I think thats it?! WOW! Family is definitly still just as important even if they are seperated by states.

So now almost 2 years ago I made the move to be on my own. What a change! There is no question that once in awhile I wish I was still living with my parents but I love the independence. Bryan and I are happy being on our own, out from under our parents where we can no longer be controlled. Dont get me wrong it is a parents job to love and protect but some parents try to control the wrong things or at the wrong times. Parents just learn to trust and let their children make choices even if they are the wrong one. We as children growing into adulthood need to learn and we tend to learn things the hard way. But we do learn and we dont do it again.... hopefully. Sometimes it takes a couple of tries. I adore my parents and now looking back, I realize that I didnt show that I loved and appreciated them anywhere near enough. But as a teenage that just wasnt my thing and now that they have moved to Florida the only thing we have is a phone to communicate. I miss them dearly and I dont think that I would feel this way if they hadnt moved away. You know how they say "absence makes the heart grow fonder" it is so true.

Well I suppose that is enough for now. Maybe now that I have rambled for awhile I can try and get some sleep now that it is 5:30 in the morning and I have been up all night.